Testimony Tuesdays: 06/28/11

When it comes to a full-time job, I am unemployed. -___- For awhile, I was pretty blown; I'm not going to lie. I worked my butt off in college to have plenty of relevant experience and great resume builders. Everyone told me, "OH You'll have no problem getting a job!" Yet, here I am. Having problems. lol (This goes to show you that it doesn't matter what you have planned for you because you are not the one in control.)

As I mentioned last week, I just knew I was going to employed at school XYZ and live out my dreams. But once I graduated and went to them to seek employment, they had no openings. DEVASTATION.COM 


So from there I applied at 2 other schools that met "my criteria". I didn't hear back about those positions and immediately felt discouraged and became bitter about it. For a few weeks, I decided to wait. Those 3 schools were the schools I saw myself at and I just knew that my job searching was going to end there.


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A few weeks went by and after being miserable and sulking, I decided that I would go through a list of schools and decide which ones I wanted to work at and contact them. Looking back at it now, I definitely was picky picky. My parents kept telling me that I was being irrational and overly picky for a rookie teacher, but I felt like I was going to go after what I wanted and that was fine. I had no problem looking at a school and saying, Oh no, I will not work there; ever. I've exhausted my options as for as applications. If you could see my spreadsheet of all the schools I've applied to, you'd either be amazed or say SMH.



Let me pause to say: There is nothing wrong with having high standards and going after them. But when you have things that you're chasing after that don't align with what God's desire for your life is, they're in vain. 


Through the process of looking for a job, God has not only made me reaffirm why I want to teach, but He also has shown me that life isn't about my plans and what I want, but what He wants for my life. I won't get into specifics but my desires have completely changed within the last month as far as places for employment. No longer am I prideful about the choices of where I will work.


I've been asked to interview for positions that I didn't necessarily want, but God has humbled my heart to where I can see the blessing of working anywhere. No longer do I overanalyze whether or not I want a job at a particular school or particular grade. The only thing I can think about whenever I see an opening at any school is, "There are kids there that need to be taught more than just how to take a test. Teachers who may need a bit of refreshment. Parents who need encouragement. etc.etc." 

God has shown me that regardless of what goes on in my life, He's in control. If I had to look back in my life at past examples, there have always been situations that didn't go my way that God used to bring me closer to Him, have a better testimony, and/or get me to a better situation in life.

So, at this point, I am happily unemployed BECAUSE I know that God is completely control and no matter what happens, I have no need to worry because He'll take care of me and my needs. When the time is right for me to get a job, the right school and the right grade will come along.


PS Today marks my 8th year of being saved. I've seen some rough patches in life, but even though I'm not where I want to be, thankfully, I'm not what I used to be!