School's Out!

Working full-time is really affecting me! I've been more and more worn out as the days pass, and it's only been a little over 2 months. How in the world do people do this for like 40 years? I'm already ready to retire...

In other news, this guy I had a baby crush on at work (I'm still hoping for some miraculous "office romance") is really weirding me out.

Over the summer, we talked a lot. Pretty much on a daily basis. But as soon as school started, he barely spoke to me. 

Like seriously. 

Like, not even a "hi" in passing unless I said something first. And when he did respond, it was like he was making SUCH an effort to do so.

And I greet everyone in my building with a "good morning" and a smile every morning. So it's not like I look like walking death everyday even if I'm dog tired.

Still, it's like I was invisible or something.

So after a while, I stopped wasting my breath.

I mean, if you don't want to speak to me, I'm not going to kill myself to speak to you.

However petty or immature that might sound, it's the truth. Anyone who knew me in the past knows that I really didn't smile often, as I wasn't a generally "happy" person.

But since I've begun working as a teacher, I have been so happy - happier than I have ever been in my life. As someone who's suffered with depression since childhood, it is an answer to a prayer to not only feel good enough to get out of bed, but to feel good enough to want to share that feeling with others as well.

So, my happiness means a lot to me, and I guess I took it too personally that he didn't recognize that I have a smile on my face and an energy I've never had consistently, and cared enough to want to share that with him. 

Whatever.

So we've been walking past each other for weeks catching a glimpse of each other without speaking, and now it doesn't even faze me.

Well, yesterday, I wore my hair differently (in a curly updo as opposed to my usual bun) and all of a sudden he started talking to me again.

The heck?

I am SO confused.

Have you found that your interactions with other people in general change when your hair changes?

Maybe it's just a coincidence, or maybe his male PMS has finally ended. Either way, I'm confused...